I know someone and this someone i had i dream about like a couple of weeks ago and now i can get the person out of my thoughts.Has this ever happened to you? This person has a name but i wont give it out lets call this person nomad.The dream i had about nomad was a romantic dream,now i can’t stop thinking about him, then when i do think about him i think about him in a loving,romantic way.What do i do.yes this time I’m asking you to help me.Please comment me on what ever you think is right.Now back to nomad, he is of course a boy that i know,i have known him for some time now.Really i have always liked nomad but in a brotherly sibling kind of way sure i had some crushes on him but they didn’t last this long.Well help me world.

Samantha

Everything has good and bad parts, and well i have some too. Right now i`m really sad because even though he is still here i`m really going to miss Cody when he is gone.Being the youngest child in the family has good and bad parts too.Some good things are…if you are every bullied or need help you got it right in front of you.Some bad things are…Your always last…last to move out, last in games, last in school, last in everything. Noticing how much i have grown in the past years has surprised my family, but i never thought it would surprise me yet it has. My extra large house is starting to seem smaller. Now with Cody about to leave Sarah will move in and it will be mom, dad, Sarah, and me in this extra large house, other than mom, dad ,Jaymee, Dylan, Zach, Brandie, josh, Justin, Cody, and me. This house this family this world is starting to come to reality, and now i notice that it can’t stay like this forever.Everything changes sometimes for the better sometimes for the worst, but it will change even if we don’t want it to. Have you ever had a dream that you wish you could stay asleep and keep dreaming or you would wake up and it would be real and you would stay in that time of your life forever i have but i always woke up and i would have ether five seconds to get up before being sprayed with cold water, or i would be yelled at if i wasn’t up in less than five minutes. How nice, right but thats the way of a big family.

I`m still sad right now, i gess i`m family sick but anyway gotta run

Samantha

Yes world finally the wonderful day has come.This day is the last day for Cody and mine homeschooling. I will no longer be in home school my brother Cody wont ether.Cody will be moving in with my sister next month. and I will hopefully be going to a middle school while my parents get this house ready to sell.Then when ready, my parents, Cody and I will move up to I.L. in the summer.Me and Cody will go to school there. But thats what I want to do…

My grandparents who live near we will be moving,want me to come and stay with them for the coming up school year. Then my family will move there after the school year. I do not like that plan for a few reasons…I hate being split from my family, I love N.C. and i want to go to this middle school here so I will know what one is like before I move to I.L.. My grandmother who lives in I.L. thinks that I could handle going to this middle school I hope shes not lying to me. Do you want to know the best part about going to public school…Shopping before the school year-this means new clothes,and school supplies of course,but I also am getting my hair cut before the school year!The worst part about this year of public school is no Cody… I`m really going to miss him.

Samantha

What stuff has been going on in your life? Let me tell you some stuff that is going on in mine. Well my bedroom upstairs is still not done. My family’s backyard pool is open for the summer. Still no rain. Sarah, Cody, and I have been going on walk every day. Now for others…

Reading-I have been reading nothing.

Music-skillet,Thousand foot krutch, Linkin park, and Three days grace is what I’ve been listening to on my music player

Clothes-pretty much anything dark.My mom says that its a stage but i think not black is high in fashion today,i`m not much of a fashion person anyway but it helps you blend in.Some people call it rocker,or punk I call it me,I love wearing a black tee and dark jeans.

Weather-sunny and hot,rarely rainy but great weather. I love rain and thunder storms but who can’t like a sunny day-best weather to skateboard.

Jewelry and Make-up-nothing other than my black watch and a cross necklace from a friend go on me, Oh! And the occasional rings (I don’t have my ear pierced …yet) and I don’t wear any makeup unless you consider toe nail polish and chap stick makeup?

Other than that nothing really has been going on. Nothing has been going on in the house other than my soon to be bedroom-my dad is working on it.Outside to much is going on my mother is having the house painted red(shutters),white(trimming),and blue(walls),cool all but the shutters…I hate shutters,and behind them is a baby blue wall,if you think uncolored fingernails are gross (girly girls do.I don’t) take that and call it pretty-you must be blind.

Samantha

As i have said before the world is melting and i am ashamed-my dad is a tree killer! Hes a wood worker they go and cut down trees the use the wood for decks,bookcases,desks,and others.Yea blah blah some might like to hurt him but i have lived with this my whole life,and he`s not a bad guy.More stuff going on-my bedroom has not been complete but hopefully it will be soon-My brother is still calling me emo but i`m not,he should know that girls grow and they get more emotional and emo people wear dark clothes i do because its easy to blend in and its a cool color-I think my sister Brandie is spending more time on her computer than with her daughter-Sarah is graduating soon tomorrow really,then after the grad. stuff her family is coming over to are house for a grad. party-the weather here is very hot and humid,no rain and theres to much sun cant we get some clouds here-good stuff : this coming up school year i might be moving to I.L. to stay with my grandparents so i can go to school while my parents sell the house-bad stuff : i will be by myself on this move and my brother will be staying with my sister.Oh and did a say that i am really really BORED there`s nothing to do around here…

Samantha-THE BORED

No not the piss like i`m going to piss on you…drip drip drip,I am talking about the pissed off kind of pissed. Not only is it red week for me i`m pissed at my dad,and the people of the world. Why? First of all its not like you don’t know the world is melting because of are cars,electronics, and keeping your lights on in the day you can open up some curtains it won’t kill you,thats why i`m pissed off at the world its not like you can’t walk and if you can wheel your self to work this means going to bed early and waking up early…yuck (i`m against that thing called daylight night is awesome i love to sleep in and stay up until 4:00 in the morning) the world is falling apart you could even go back in time and start using horse’s to get around. Its not the fastest way to get around but so what at least you know your great great grandkid’s will live because there air wasn’t gas filled. Why i`m pissed at my dad is a different story so i gess i will start telling…my dad father thingy always has me and my brother clean every night,well one day when he came to tell us to clean i said that maybe in stead of us cleaning he should get up and clean,he didn’t like the sound of that so he told us to clean anyway and walked away.Nope i wasn’t scared i was pissed off i think my dad should get up off his dang butt and do some work(that he doesn’t like). My sister and brother keep telling me that i shouldn’t of talked to my dad like that but i`m think its time he gets up and stop treating us kids like slaves,such as after we cleaned he came to me and said if i talked to him like that again he would do something what is he gonna spank me or ground me oh my gosh i`m gonna die(like i go out the house anyway)so anyway i have gone with the fact that i will be cleaning every night for the rest of my life. Ok i gotta go but i will keep being pissed trust me.

The Pissed-aka-Sam

My family has had a good summer so far swimming in the pool and outdoor stuff but soon I will no longer live with my family. If our house does not get sold by this summer I will be moving 16 hours away, with my grandparents…by myself. I will be going to a normal public school unlike the past two years. I will be scared to go there without my family but hopefully they will get our house sold and move there quickly.Now in the past months that i knew us moving was true i was scared and was not going to move even if that meant living in a card board box for the rest of my life. but i have come to see what good will come of this new movement.So i will let you know how it goes in the meantime i haven’t had much too write about so i will talk to you soon

-Samantha

Come on people can you get out and tell your friends about Hope Stories? Would you like to know what my stats,and data are its horrible help me out and get the word around,please dont make me do all the work. Heres my stats (in days) and don’t you dare laugh

DAYS

May 30th-0 views

May 29th-0 views

May 28th-1 view(s)

May 27th-0 views

May 26th-6 veiws

May 25th-1 view(s)

May 24th-0 views

May 23rd-3 views

May 22nd-1 view(s)

May 21st-9 views

MONTHS

-Samantha

quit being lazy!!

Sure we all get scared. Well what are you scared of? I am scared of freaks on the internet trying to get to you,thats my main scary thing. I gess i`m only scared of this thing because i have been though a lot on the internet mainly E-mails and Messengers i have had some bad friends who sent me bad, scary E-mails,and messengers. I have a E-mail and messenger profiles.Latly one person has been messing around with me,but at least i know who he is.This person is my friends boyfriend and has a really bad background he has to go to a camp for drugs and he`s a really bad person of course hes always at my friends house and when i get on my messenger account he likes to talk to me he cuss`s me out and he calls me names good and bad(such as ugle, whore, sexy)really i have been though so much with my emails that he doesn`t scare me.Its not like he knows my phone number or address,but of course the fact i know he has my email address can be shocking.I`m not scared of the fool,because thats what he is, a little fool.Who in the world harass`s little kids (i`m younger than him) i will tell you who…he does.If you ever have E-mail,messenger,Myspace or any internet harassing problem heres some advise-

1-never give out your email address,home address,phone number or full name to anyone on the internet you don’t know(and just to be safe ask your parent before you do this)

2-if someone does start harassing you report him or her to the blog or website owner fast.

3-when being harassed you should not panic this person is a creep and you need to remain clam in order to not do what he/she says to do.

4-if you want to meet a person you have found on the internet you should ask you parent first and if they let you ask one to go with you to meet this person,she/he might not be who they say they are.

5-during harassment the harasser might want you to go on porn websites,threat him/her,call him/her. You should not do these things. Why? Because porn websites your parents more than likely wont aprove of,if you threat him/her they can =report you,or blackmail you,calling them will not just make you uncofertable,but if they have caller id they have your phone number and they can call you and find out your email address,home address,phone number or full name.

If you need more info on internet harassment comment me on this post.

For awhile i was harassed by who i thought was my best friend i gave her my email address and messenger address and she harassed me.A harasser can very well make you think they are your friend but while you believe that they are they can make you ado bad things and get away with what they just made you do.Don`t let anyone harass you i didn’t. I even gave the person my E-mail password but as soon as i realized i was being harassed i got a new password,blocked them,and reported them.

i have to go-Samantha

I`m feeling sad, hurt, and i hate to say this but the alone Samantha is back. I hate the way i feel and i`m being drawn back in too the alone circle. I feel like nobody can understand me, i miss my family of huge siblings. I can’t sleep at night,everything is so quiet and boring. At night i toss and turn until my muscles hurt.last night i when to sleep at 5:30 and my mother got me up and 11:00. I feel like if i talk too someone i always end up saying something wrong i even i hurt someone or even myself because of what i say. Ether way i say something wrong..so i`m trying not to say much. When i do have fun (with other people) i always end up screwing it up for the other people. If i stay away from other people then i feel alone. What do i do? At night i turn my music up loud but my dad comes in and tell me to turn it down. In the daytime i put on my headphones and draw. When people ask me stuff i answer then put back on my headphones before they can start a conversation, And when i`m “playing” outside i don’t talk unless i need to know something or someone asks me something. It’s not really bad but its getting there.UPDATE-

Reading-nothing

Music-Three Days Grace,12 Stones,Piller,Simple Plan,Rehab,and Bon Jovi is what I’ve been listening to on my music players.

Cothes-pretty much anything dark.My mom says that its a stage but i think not black is high in fashion today,i’m not much of a fashion person anyway but it helps you blend in.Some people call it rocker,or punk I call it me,I love wearing a cool black rocker tee and matching jeans.

Weather-sunny and hot sometimes rainy but great weather.I love rain and thunder storms.Plus who can not like a sunny day-best weather to skate broad.

Jewl’s and makeup-nothing other than some cool handmade bracelets and a cross necklace from a friend go on my body-oh and the ocasional rings(I don’t have ears holes…yet)and I dont wear any makeup onless you consider toe nail polish and chap stick makeup.

there ya go full update on me!

well reader gotta go we are having a cookout and i have too help cook…

Love Ya-Samantha